Well, after several years of being a nutritarian, I sometimes feel like I am in a prison too. I am so used to eating healthy that I can't tolerate the unhealthy stuff. I find it easier to go 100% healthy than 90%. But that means I eat differently from everyone else, all the time. This is easily twisted into feeling that I'm not allowed to eat what everyone else eats, and feeling sad about that. They are all provided snacks and catered meals from one of the best restaurants in town, and I am not! They are raving about the food and I can't have any! Rationally, I know I likely wouldn't like the oily, salty food, and the snacks are mostly junk.
Rationally I get positive messages all the time that I am doing what I want to do. At one point today we were supposed to meditate on pain and I was one of the few people in the room with no pain to meditate on. I'm probably one of the few who doesn't take medications. My lunch and snacks were yummy.
So why am I still after all these years experiencing jealousy? Maybe it's just a last step of dredging up some old feelings so I can shed them like a snake sheds skin. Would that ever be a relief.
The workshop was great by the way. This is definitely a fun new adventure for me. Hard to believe I'm saying that about sitting around doing nothing. haha.